07/24/2012

I am thinking about my dad a lot these days. He has a shadow in his lung x-ray, and he has been coughing for a long time.

I have been calling my mom and dad very day since I have heard about this news. My mom's voice told me that she has been crying. My dad sounds sad.

I prayed to God that this lung mass is harmless. That they will live their lives happily ever after. They have worked so hard all their lives just to make our lives easier. We had good education and down payments for our houses. They have loved us very much, though they don't show affection very often to us. But they loved us in their own ways.

They have not even started their retirement lives yet. They still have to enjoy their lives, see their grandchildren grown up. They really haven't enjoyed lives just yet.

Please God, listen to my prayer and let this be harmless. They are very good people, and generous. Please let them live out their retirement healthly and joyfully.

I have been feeling guilty also. I have not treated them very warmly during their trip here. I was always moody and sad, and that made them sad. My mom loves my pie, and I didn't even bake anything for them this time. I was not a good daughter. I did't even know he was coughing.

Only if I could, I should.

I have been remembering how my dad always showered me with gifts from each of his business trip. He would always buy me handkerchiefs. I remembered the little red mirror he bought me from Japan, and the blowfish chime. This is how he showed his affection to me.

Dear God, please let this be harmless and let my dad live.