07/08/2012

Today I received a small purple flower from a homeless man while exiting out from Trader Joe's near my apartment.

He said to me, "for you, my beautiful angel". I was very moved. I think in this case, he is the beautiful angel sent by God.

You probably don't understand why this is so significant to me because you don't know the context.

Here is the context of my story...

I always hated my boy-like-chest. I feel like a fraud as a woman. When I look into the mirror, I see a boy. I was teased by strangers, classmates, my brother, and my husband.

Yesterday during the therapy session, this issue was brought up along with the option of breast implant. It had never crossed my mind to alter my body. This was never an option to me. It sounds stupid and superficial. Beauty is within.

But my therapist planted a seed in my mind. Consider this as an option if breast implant is going to re-frame my mind in how I view myself. If this will make me feel like a real whole woman, not a fraud anymore.

Then today God sent me this message...