07/11/2012

Today marks the one year anniversary since I moved into my apt.

Wow, time really flew. Who would have thought that it will come to this state?

How have I survived? It is unbelievable. I survived with the support from my family, my friend, and my therapist. I survived with the invisible helping hand from God.

I think God had walked with me along on this journey. Otherwise, I would have already committed suicide. Many times I wanted to die to end this misery. It was so painful.

With time, the pain has subsided a bit. I am starting to take small steps forward. Left, right, left, right....

I still have those moments when I just break down and cry. But I am still here. Time really does dilute my pain. I pray a lot more these days. I tell God everything. I even pray for him sometimes.

I know this tunnel is dark and long. I also know that there is an end to this tunnel, and I am walking to the end.