09/01/2012

I just got back from visiting my dad. I went with my husband to see my dad. I wanted to show my dad that we are "ok". I don't want him to worry about me.

It has been a week since I got back. I am in a very dark place this whole week. I see my life as meaningless when compared to my dad's. I don't want to live. There is nothing to live for. I don't have kids, no husband. I have only a failed marriage, a failed love. I have no one who loves me.

I stared out my windows today. I wished to the tree that please take my life someone is going to fully live it, instead of me wasting it.