He lied again. I feel so lonely and scared. The closet person in the whole world lied to me again and again. I feel so lonely. I don't understand why he kept lying to me. It is either that he doesn't know how much it hurts me or he simply doesn't care about me. Which is it? I didn't bring up divorce. This should not be a word used lightly. I kept it inside.
We have no children. I am not close to my brothers. My dad is dying. My mom is far away.
Is there no pure love out there except from my parents. There is simply no unconditional love other than from my parents.
When I die, I will die alone.
Will history repeat itself? Only time could tell. Is this a mistake? Did I love the wrong person?
I never lie to him, but yet he lies to me many many times. Why? How could you lie to the closet person in the whole world? Unless I am not his closet person in the whole world.
Every time he lies, we step back a few squares, chipping away the trust I just barely rebuilt.
I feel so lonely... I cannot even trust the only person.
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