Is God listening to my prayers?
I still don't know what and why I do the things I do.
Monday, December 19, 2011
Sunday, December 18, 2011
12/18/2011
Today I began my plead to God.
I am not a religious person. I don't believe in anything. But I just couldn't get myself out of this hole. I constantly have thoughts to harm myself. My dear friend suggested to me to plead to higher power. This is the only way out.
I want to give it a try.
I borrowed a few books from the library. Books on forgiving, divorce, God, and making bread. I need to nourish my soul first before we can go forward to resolution, whatever that might be.
I prayed very hard. I hope that God is listening. I prayed that we will be released from this pain, that we will have peace and calm. I prayed that God will lead us to the right way, and help us to get through it. I prayed.
I am not a religious person. I don't believe in anything. But I just couldn't get myself out of this hole. I constantly have thoughts to harm myself. My dear friend suggested to me to plead to higher power. This is the only way out.
I want to give it a try.
I borrowed a few books from the library. Books on forgiving, divorce, God, and making bread. I need to nourish my soul first before we can go forward to resolution, whatever that might be.
I prayed very hard. I hope that God is listening. I prayed that we will be released from this pain, that we will have peace and calm. I prayed that God will lead us to the right way, and help us to get through it. I prayed.
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
12/13/2011
It has been one year since 12/2/2010. That night the truth came out. Since then, nothing has changed really. I have been living by myself for 5 months now. I tried not going back home on the weekends, but, couldn't survive.
Decisions are so hard to make, that we both avoid making any. Not going forward. Stagnant. I don't like December.
Decisions are so hard to make, that we both avoid making any. Not going forward. Stagnant. I don't like December.
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