04/13/2017

It is tough, when I don't feel loved.

04/09/2017

He enjoyed living by himself. So why do we go to marriage counseling? What is the point? We did some re-connecting exercises during the counseling sessions, then we went back to our separate homes. So what is the point? I am confused. If he wants to be on his own, then why bother to go to marriage counseling? Is it to convince himself that he wants to stay married? If one wants to stay married, why does one need convincing? I am really confused of what is going on here. It is like he has one foot on one path, and the other foot on the other path. I don't understand what is going on.

04/05/2017

Today we went to a marriage counselor. This marriage counselor is different from the ones that we had seen. The method is very different. He made us face each other and talk to each other in a very different way. I left feeling more hopeful and less heavy.

04/01/2017

The hummingbird babies are gone. I guess they flew away. We saw the mom a few times this morning. She was taking some lining out of the nest. I don't know why. I am sad that they are gone. We just bought a new selfie stick wishing to take more pictures of the babies. But now they are gone.

Why does everybody leave me?