01/04/2017

I cried so much every day. The tears are back. I can get through this. I can get through this. This will pass. It will. I hope my future self can tell me that this will pass. I cannot stand this anymore. I don't want to live another day. I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I wish to be run over by a car. I wish this pain will disappear. I don't want to live.

01/02/2017

This is an awful start of the new year. We are getting a divorce. Going through it. Nothing is going to change that. Nothing will change that. I wish I don't wake up in the morning. I am back in the tunnel where there is no light.