02/18/2016

Grief is like waves; it has ebb and flow. This is how I am feeling now. All of a sudden it just hits you.

02/16/2016

I read this from rd on secrets of long lasting marriage. Divorce is not an option - not to be thought about, said aloud, considered as an answer to a problem. Almost all problems are short-term. Divorce is a long-term answer.

02/14/2016

When it rains, it pours. This is how I describe my tears. I have so many sad memory to make my tears flood. The sun on my skin feels so good afterwards.
Will we be able to make this work? We want to make this work. Will we able to get over this hill? We hope so.
I feel that we have grown since the last battle. This I am very glad about. I think he has grown and matured since the last time. I am very proud of him for that. He has become a better man since.

02/11/2016

We are all sad that dad is not here with us.
I have been thinking if what love is permanent. Is the love between a child and his parents permanent? Or is it just easier because it is given that they have this bond. But the love between partners need constant caring and maintenance.

2/6/2016

It is Chinese new year. I miss my dad and my mom. I think about the food that my dad would have enjoyed. I think about my mom being by herself. I haven't even thought of Valentine's day yet.