He said that he will not go back with me to see my dad next time. My terminally ill dad.
I don't think he cares for anyone but himself.
I feel very lonely in this marriage. I married a person with no heart, a person who doesn't value family.
I imagine myself living in a nice small house, near my work, having a dog as companion. I imagine myself not needing to think about all these mess. I will prepare dinner for myself, walk my dog, read my books, not needing to deal with this anymore. I imagine myself freed from this person. He is cold and heartless. Even if my dad is dying, I cannot count on him to go with me to see my dad. How sad is that, what a sad marriage this is. I have given my love to him for 10+ years, how blind I was.
A dog will have more passion and loyalty than him.
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
01/22/2013
He lied to me that he has to work yesterday even though that was MLK holiday.
I am disappointed at him lying to me again.
That feeling is back.... I want to die....and get away from all such mess.
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